Signor Perso was the last person who knew who I’d been, and when I found him—naked but for his dressing gown, his white mustache perfectly groomed, his hands folded over the little volume on his chest as if he’d laid himself out for the occasion—my stomach fluttered in a moment of giddy, un tethered possibility. Without thinking much I set my passport in the hotel ashtray and lit it on fire; before its flames withered, I had thrown on my clothes. But when I opened the door a flurry of ashes swirled up into the restive air, and instead of leaving, I rushed back to try and catch them before they could drift down onto his body. His utter stillness ridiculed my fran tic, stupid groping until I quietly stood over him amidst the black snow. After a while, though I knew I shouldn’t, I touched his face. My finger scudded against his dead cheek, and there I was, sitting on the bed in our pensione suite, stuck behind a wall he had sailed over effortlessly, without me, in his sleep.

I turned off…